11 January 2014 @ 09:13 pm
Myaru's entry kind of makes me feel bad about not posting here as much as I used to. I kind of miss this site, since I know it's more conducive to discussion than Tumblr. Sadly, I also know most of you have gone to Tumblr!

Lately I have had quite a few FE thoughts, but mostly concerning FE13. P: And I always hesitate to post FE7/8/9/10 (whatever) thoughts because I'm generally sure that people are sick of seeing those; they tend to be the same or similar to things I've posted in the past.

I usually discuss writing ideas with Kender as it is, so that leaves...what? for this journal? Meta? Random blatherings about the various fandoms I'm in? I'm not sure. I should rewrite my Rose of Versailles thoughts and post them here, though; they were disjointed when I put them on Tumblr. P:

Hmm. (I totally forget all my tags here.)
02 August 2013 @ 10:22 pm
this was posted on tumblr so feel free to skip over it:

Have you ever edited a story that was 250,000 words long? For the first time? Oh my God. I’m the worst at editing in the world. It’s a good thing Kender’s around to keep me in check because I keep forgetting to go back and edit my parts.

Below is crap about RPing fanfic out through email. Oh and Kender and I wrote a 76,000 word story in eight days. BOOYAH.

(For those out of the loop, Kender and I have co-authored like a million things and by a million I mean nine, but it’s over 700,000 words of fanfic between us. Nothing’s posted yet. We’re uhm…editing.)

The fact that we semi-regularly (all year) have been writing stories 40,000-70,000 words long is hysterical. The advantage to this “RP"/coauthoring thing is that it keeps us both writing. I could argue that we would be writing separately if not together, but that’s not true.

Our process is something like this:

1. We “take turns" picking a plot/beginning scene/whatever, write it up in the POV of our main character, send it to the other person.

2. Other person responds with the second character.

3. This goes back and forth until the story is done, with us picking up other characters who appear. Sometimes we switch, so for some RPs I did Farina, and for others Kender did Farina. In the one we did where almost the entire cast of FE7 was present, we had to pick characters in advance and points of view for scenes, and plot it all out.

Anyway, it’s fun. I could respond to RP/fic emails in between classes, or even during class if I was super sneaky. She can even reply on her phone. It’s been really nice.

Sometimes we have long scenes. I know I’ve written some that were 1,600-2,500 words long, so basically a one-shot all on their own, but it’s seriously a lot of fun to do this with someone else. It keeps the story fresh and interesting (because in RP you can’t always predict how another character will react to what yours does) and it requires a little teamwork and snatches of free time.

I know when I sit down to write actual fanfiction, on my own, I need a block of about six hours (even if I know it’ll only take me two to write what I need to; I have to know I have TONS of time) and perfect peace and quiet. For RP-email ‘ficcing? I don’t quite need that.

So with our first RP, we slapped it up onto Google Docs in ten parts and started editing scenes. (Part 10/10 editing begins now; this has taken forever. The best part? We still don’t have a title. Dang we’re good.) Because our first RP was written in sloppy both-points-of-view with overlapping parts, we had to cut back and make each scene from just one character’s point of view (instead of letting it be completely omniscient) so it’s been a ton of work. But man it was fun to write.

The RP/fic that we just finished today? 76,000 words. We started it on July 25th. It was a ‘fic I intended to write for the final conclusion to my novelization—which WE ALL KNOW WILL NEVER GET WRITTEN ANYWAY. 8-9 days to write 76,000 words.


I mean, I know it sounds silly, but it’s just so much more fun than sitting alone to write for hours. Sometimes. Regarding certain things. RPing out fanfic for some ideas is way easier than forcing yourself to get excited about it alone. When you don’t know how other characters are going to react exactly to what someone says, it leaves this element of suspense to the story that makes it so it might turn out differently than you had planned, but the advantage is that you don’t ever feel like you’re forcing characters into roles or situations that they probably wouldn’t get themselves into.

And the amazing amount of miscommunication is perfect. It feels real when Hector says X, and in a fanfic Farina would know he meant Y by saying X, because you’ve probably planned that and you’re one person thinking with our own mind, but in an RP she might actually think he meant Z by saying X. The person playing her might read what you say and decide immediately that it doesn’t sound like what you meant it to sound like when you wrote it. (Kind of like…real life.)

Basically: I fucking love this. It’s awesome. It’s so much fun. It gives me something to look forward to most days.

And Kender is probably getting sick of it BUT TOO BAD. /noogies her and flees.

The unfortunate thing is that to turn these into fanfics, there is some serious editing that has to be done. I still feel it’s worth it. ;)

Too bad I suck at editing.

When these are done they’ll be posted here.


Here are the stories we’ve written in order:

#1: Hector/Farina* (started out with no plot, ended up super long and involved; farina and hector basically make a lot of bets with one another)
#2: Hector/Farina (friends-with-benefits)
#3: Hector/Farina (farina shows up out of nowhere and starts flirting madly for “no reason")
#4: AU Hector/Farina* (hector meets farina by running into her at all three of her jobs; deals with endometriosis)
#5: Hector/Farina (trust issues/scared of sex/getting married just so that hector won’t have to marry a stranger)
#6: Kent/Lyn, Hector/Farina, Sain/Fiora, Eliwood/Ninian, Erk/Priscilla, Serra/Oswin, others (pretty much a massive blanket scenario type fanfic but not as weird as it sounds)
#7: Kent/Lyndis (lyn decides she’s going to do what it takes to get kent to notice her. pretty much as bad as it sounds but not written as bad as it probably sounds)
#8: Hector/Farina, Oswin/Serra (farina comes to hector looking for work that is safe, but she kind of can’t do it)
#9: Kent/Lyn, Sain/Fiora, Hector/Farina, Wil+Florina (Lyn goes back to rule Caelin after Negal’s defeat, does a terrible job, and is Hausen’d (aka poisoned))
* = our best efforts

WHAT WILL NUMBER TEN BE?????????? who knows. It’s my turn to pick, and I’m in love with Kender’s Kent—she’s so good at writing him it makes me jealous. I’m considering an AU.

But uhm…I need to edit… Yeah. >_> TO GOOGLE DOCS!!!!!
15 June 2013 @ 09:46 pm
Part I of III, comment if you want. :)

Finally I'm managing to write up a Fire Emblem: Awakening post. From hereon out it will be referred to as FE13.

Long and under a cut. )
15 June 2013 @ 02:22 am
My FE13 post is 15 pages. I warned everyone. I'll be posting it maybe tomorrow. I know I've forgotten like twenty things I meant to mention but I can't think of what they are.

If there was anything you hoped I'd cover in the post though, please let me know now. :P
08 June 2013 @ 05:10 pm
Okay I finally finished FE13.

I'm working on a post about it now but it'll be extremely long and will take like...thirty years for me to finish.

So I'm curious to know what people think is FE13's biggest weakness/the most negative thing about the game. Just one thing, though--the absolute worst part (for you personally).

I'm trying to see if people's opinions match up or if it's wildly different for everyone.

Obviously this post will contain metric shittons of SPOILERS so don't look here if you don't want any spoilers. Also, you can comment if you HAVEN'T beaten the game but let me know that.
06 May 2013 @ 05:10 pm
I never update this thing because I suck. Actually, like two people read it and I talk to them on AIM anyway soooo.

Let's see.


1. French class: HAHAAHAHAHAHAHA. The professeur has a phD in both French and Spanish. Fun times. She slipped into Spanish a couple of times during the lecture. Which was entirely en français. I understood like 12% of what was going on. Alex kept laughing next to me. I think he was lost, too.

2. I'm moved into the bedroom. Took like three full days to do it, too. I went a whole day without a television, then caved in and brought my brother's old TV inside my room. It's bigger than my old 27" (not by a lot, but it weighs like 100lbs less), but it has tons of lines across the screen. HAHAHAHA. It's hard to see. But whatever. I watch DVDs for background shit anyway.

3. My girls (Tiny & CiCi) are settled in all right.

4. I haven't gotten shit done.

5. My mother suddenly came to the realization that I probably have a long-untreated UTI. This is funny because I've mentioned it like 20 times. Why else would I be running to the bathroom every hour? My backaches have gotten worse, too. And I think I might have an unexplained fever--just a slight one, though. She started flipping out on me saying stuff like I FEEL HORRIBLE I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN I AM SO MAD AT MYSELF FOR NOT FIGURING IT OUT SOONER YOU ARE DRINKING WATER AND-- And I was like, Mother Dear, I did. Like three months ago I went three weeks drinking only water and it didn't help at all. But whatever. Attempt #2.

6. Fanfic ideas out the wazoo and no time to work on them. Uhhm. I'm going to start one for FE7 soon I think. About the tactician. BUT NOT WHAT YOU THINK. Pseudo-spoof of the "kid from the modern world ends up in the game" idea that everyone and their gramma writes. But better. And hopefully funnier. And more realistic. The twist is that they're not from modern-day USA or Europe, but from modern-day Elibe, and they're going into the past because the events that happened in FE7/FE6 are history textbook things. ;P The downside is that it'll probably be in first person.

7. More Than Words has dragged on too long and is now probably one of the worst things I've ever written. Still going to try and finish it. But all future things will be posted to my other account. I think. Unless I panic and change my mind.

8. Rewatching Record of Lodoss War, too, btw. :D
22 April 2013 @ 03:43 pm
Hey [personal profile] sain,

As promised, I am playing Fire Emblem. Behold, proof:

[personal profile] lyndis
05 April 2013 @ 06:52 am

I wrote my first FE13 'fic.

I wrote FE13 fic in general.


And it doesn't--it's not about the tactician. What do I do with this. It doesn't match 90% of the FE13 fic on







holy shit I'm tired I will be gone from 7am until 9:30pm it will be a sad sad day.
18 March 2013 @ 03:22 am


I command you. It's sad as shit but it's sooo gooood.

PS. Kender wrote it it's great you must read it it's great.






PPPPPPS. why don't I have an h/f icon yet this is blasphemy
17 March 2013 @ 12:08 pm
My sister is playing FE7.




(Another fanfiction prodigy in the works. /sobs happily.)
11 March 2013 @ 10:47 pm
So instead of working on my Creative Writing final I wrote more Hector/Farina. Uhh...I have no real excuse except #blamekender and the fact that there are so few stories about them on I aim to write the most, obviously. I will not only be the Kent/Lyn Queen, but the Hector/Farina Queen as well.

Also shut up I promise I will finish this story.



My pastor's memorial was yesterday. It was so lovely. The church, for the first time since about 1989/1990/1991 was PACKED. So many people came. So many people were there that my family had to sit in the choir's seats (we haven't had a choir since the 80s there). But that was cool because we've gone there for 25 years. Mannnn. I recognized people from the Dayton congregation and Brother Tom from New Castle Indiana's congregation. It was so amazing.

My sister and parents bawled their eyes out. I pinched myself damn hard to keep from crying when they started out singing It Is Well (With My Soul)--it's one of my favorites and my pastor had his own special arrangement for the piano that he made up himself. Ahhhh. But such a nice service. And people stayed to mingle afterward which also almost made me cry.

Hell it almost made me cry to see every pew filled and people sitting on folded chairs and standing against the wall at the back. So touching.

June put out her husband's paintings all over the place. My family is gonna pay to have her favorite framed for her. I sneakily measured it when she wasn't looking.


So I made a new Fire Emblem buddy. Sort of. There I was, in Great Books, talking to the girl who draws pictures on the board. We were chatting about names.

Megan: You know how your parents called you by your middle name when they were mad?

We talked about this a while, but then I admitted:

Me: My parents never really did that. I actually wanted to go by my middle name, though. I almost did.

Megan: What is it?

Me: Lynn.

Megan: Ohh that's such a pretty name. Actually, it's the name of one of my favorite Fire Emblem characters. Or close: Lyndis.


(Just like that.)

Then she said she shipped Florina/Lyn like burning but was sad that they didn't get a legit ending.

Me: That's what fanfic is for!

Megan: I swore I've never stoop so low.

Me: I can admit I stooped very low because I've written hundreds.

Megan: Wat.

Me: Yes. Literally. Hundreds.

Megan: ...I kind of want to find them now.

Anyway so then she drew a tiny Florina on the board and the whole class wondered why there was a pegasus up there. She also is a part of the in-joke in my family about how Neal killed Florina.


So she drew Florina being too late to save Myrtle from The Great Gatsby and the whole class will always wonder about it.

Dun dun dunnnnn.
07 March 2013 @ 07:21 pm
I'm pretty sure I'm the laziest person on the planet.

Okay, so the RPfic Kender and I have been working on is 240,000 words. i think we're getting close to being done so it might wrap up within another 10k or so. (HAHAHAHAHAHA maybe.)

It's always hard to end a long story because honestly, you want people to feel like a good conclusion's been reached but you don't want to go on and on forever. How does are have ending for stories? :|

So [personal profile] kender and I have reached an understanding. I write 'fic, she writes 'fic. I wrote some Hector/Farina so she updated Still Ongoing. I think this means if I write like 100 more H/F 'fics she'll update again.

Also I have a new tag. It's a great tag. My latest surge of "AHHH HECTOR FARINA AHHHH" is all her fault. HERS. ALL HERS. I mean I always liked that pairing probably 2nd best (after Kent/Lyn DUHHH) but I was too wimpy to try really writing it seriously, because Hector is hard to write but damn. They make a fine ass pairing. Kind of messed up, yes, but still. (/cries I love Farina)

ANYWAY that aside I have a legit FE13 question from my FE13 bros. This could apply to like FE7 and FE...erm...12 too.

With the "tactician" characters who are given default names (Mark, Chris/Kris, Robin), do you feel those names are better to use in 'fics? Because I looked at the FFN FE front page and quite a few had named "Robin" something different, like Ethan or FJDSjfljajdfsbob. I don't know that I have a real opinion on it, but I can't help but be a little...hmmm...maybe a little...not annoyed but SOMETHING about it.

With FE7 I firmly prefer Mark.

For FE13 though... I'm not sure. I mean, I really like the name Robin--I worked with a cool bro or four named Robin--but I think the simpler the name the more I'll not mind it. For example, when I saw a "Robin" named Ethan, I wasn't really bothered, but when I see him named some kind of pseudo-Japanese "cool-kid" name it really rubs me wrong.

Does that even make sense? The same applies to Mark, though. If someone named "Mark" Ethan or Sandra or something I'd be like, "Okay, cool." But then you get like tacticians named SANOSUKE and SEPHIROTH RAVENWINGS and I'm about no.

Thoughts? Personal preferences?
05 March 2013 @ 02:46 pm
All I can say about FE13 is this:

This is Vaike's voice now forever in my mind.

Ammie do you have a tar pit ready?
22 February 2013 @ 09:13 pm
I'm pretty much just

popcorn.gif'ing in the Fire Emblem fandom right now. So much arguing on Tumblr about the dumbest shit. Am I surprised? No. Nothing in the FE fandom surprises me anymore, and nothing probably ever will again. Except that weird 'fic about Sain but all I had to do was look at the author's name, and I was like, ah, well, that explains that.

Fear not, after tomorrow I will spam FEbruary posts to catch up. (SORRY IN ADVANCE FOR ALL THE STUPID SHIT THAT WILL BE POSTED.)

Also as a slight heads up I'll be moving journals soonish. Possibly off of LJ entirely. Why? Because I feel like it. Also I hate LJ.
19 February 2013 @ 11:48 pm

fe13: i haven't gotten very far, no OTPs yet, my brother and i are arguing about whose pairings are better
college: HAHAHAHA, exam tomorrow, classes all summer, spring break next week IT IS NOT SPRING YET DAMMIT

uhhhh when I have time to type up some more FEbruary stuff believe me I will. I have so many ideas ahhh. and fanfic. i want to write all the fanfic. but no time. maybe next week though. that'd be cool if i could get some writing done. am thinking of scrambling to finish the fe100 this year and i'd like to pick up canon in d again (SHUT UP I KNOW IT'S BEEN LIKE THREE YEARS) but it needs editing because i can't remember where i was going with some people and others i'm pretty sure i know (farina) but how i was going about it didn't make a lot of sense?

also I realized why I don't much care for sprawling stories like canon in d--everything feels so...surfaceish. like. if i write things too deeply it takes up so much space it hurts. if i write it sparing details it's fun and silly but lacks the depth i really want to see between characters. too many characters. i think that story had kent, lyn, sain, fiora, priscilla, guy, serra, florina, farina, hector, wil, rebecca, and then i had like jan and all the older characters and etc. it was such a silly story. fun to write but still hard to write because i had to try and strike a balance between HAY THIS IS TOO MUCH DETAIL and WHOA NOT ENOUGH DETAIL.
15 February 2013 @ 06:11 pm
This wasn't going to be an FE-bruary post but it is now. I just talk too much. I guess it's pretty general though regarding RPing and writing (coauthoring or even alone I guess), but I use a lot of Fire Emblem examples.

Aw yeah, so most of you know I've been RPing up a storm. The ToS RP sadly died, but it got this long first:

I mostly got bored of it...ehhh because my RP partner is really, really conservative or something and even though it's nice to have someone not all like YEAHHH SEX it's like, come on, characters are going to have those kinds of thoughts at least? Or thoughts leaning in that direction? (Barring asexuality of course; my character is not asexual.) But those things make her uncomfortable. Which I'm totally okay with. But if you want a lot of cute scenes between two characters who are interested in one another, okay, and you want them to do things like sleep in the same bed (but not have sex), you still can't deny that, y'know, the male half is sometimes gonna have at least thoughts and probably some happy morning funtimes to go along with all that. Which of course I couldn't even mention or think of mentioning, which made their interactions seem really, really flat. Relationships don't really work that way. Eventually there's something there that's, y'know, physical. For most people.

And a LOT of stuff happened, so it's not like it's just a lot of slice-of-life. There was a lot of action, too. The thing is practically an epic-length fanfic all on its own. I could have kept going but the characters started to feel really stale.


On the other side of the fence I've also been RPing with [personal profile] kender and this thing we're gonna have to turn into a fanfic. In fact, Kender is such an awesome RP partner I just want to kidnap her and write lots of co-authored 'fic together, including some of our evil collab ideas from a few years ago. (b-l-a-n-k-e-t-s-c-e-n-a-r-i-o & h-o-r-r-o-r-f-i-c)

Our current RP is a Hector/Farina and here's what our word count looks like:

I think around 200k, it might be wrapping up? Maybe. Either way, Kender is a most excellent Hector, lemme just say that right off. Damn. But the best thing is that we don't discuss much in advance. She writes any awesome actiony scenes (s-p-a-r-r-i-n-g) that we do discuss the outcome of, and sometimes we question why a character does/says something and we can explain it and talk about why they'd act that way/et cetera. But for the most part we just let stuff happen. There's not a lot of "If he does/says this, how will she react?" going on. While I totally approve of that under certain circumstances (writing yourself into a corner/ruining the story you want to tell SUCKS), I find most people have a really hard time not making things happen that they really want to happen...but some things need to happen a little more naturally. A person has to realize that the character they're roleplaying as doesn't have TIME to THINK--and this goes DOUBLE for characters like Hector and Farina who never really seem to do a lot of thinking before speaking anyway. Okay, so while someone like Eliwood throws everything through a filter first, most characters aren't gonna be sitting there for 20 minutes thinking of what to say.

I will admit, though, that I might say, "When Farina comes back to Ostia she's going to ______." I do this mostly when I come up with something interesting, that Kender can't really say, "I know exactly how Hector will react to that," because it hasn't happened yet, but it might give us something to look forward to, and it lets us plan a little in advance regarding our specific character(s) and possible outcomes, too. A little manipulation is okay--writing fanfiction is close enough anyway IMO--but too much is really bad for a story.

Surprise is great. I mean, sometimes I get so invested in "being" Farina that the stuff Hector says makes me sad or angry or sometimes it even hurts. It's like I'm sitting there going, "Wow, if I were Farina, this would just make me cry/laugh/scream/rage/leave the room." But I'm feeling it, too. And sometimes Hector's reactions to the things Farina says/does? Surprises me. Seriously, I don't see it coming, it's like, WOW why is he acting that way? WOW. WHY? But then later it's like, OOH that makes sense, wow!

Because people don't always act like you think they will, because (shock!) other people are not you. They don't think the same, act the same, talk the same, walk the same, experience things in the same way, or see things with the same eyes. That element of surprise is why this RPing is so much fun. It's like coauthoring a story but only having control over one or two characters leaves you going ahhhh what will they do next? Leaving you with the suspense that your character(s) might ALSO be feeling because THEY can't predict what someone else is going to do, either.

But continuing on that subject, something else I think is important regarding RP is natural interaction, which is why I don't over-encourage pre-planning too much. You obviously have a direction you want to move in, but still. If you constantly plan everything stuff will start to sound trite and very contrived. You don't want dialogue sounding like a conspiracy. (/bad reference GO)

For that matter, if you want to initiate an argument between two characters, just let them be themselves. While Florina's not likely to start arguing with everyone ever, every single person (and therefore every character) has something that just really grinds their gears, and you know what? The game doesn't always tell us what those things are. We know Kent gets really snappy about irresponsibility/laziness, and Lyn hates people who hurt innocents, but what about Eliwood? (Injustice?) Hector? (Being told what to do?) Wil? (I have no damn idea.) I mean, everyone has something. And some things would piss anyone off.

This is helpful to think about just for writing fanfiction too, though, I think. A lot of people claim to struggle with dialogue but there's really only one key: people talk. They talk without overthinking everything they say. They usually say the first thing to come to mind, or the second thing if they can't say the first.

Even if, "How goes it?" is replaced by, "How fare you?" in regards to characters like Sain, it's the same basic idea, and the character he's responding to will respond with, "I'm good, how're you?" or some variation thereof.

Also remember that most people don't approach other people specifically to talk to them if they've got nothing to say, and trying to force them to say something sounds forced.

But every conversation doesn't have to be profound, either. Maybe Meg is going to talk to Zihark about this year's crops, or the three-field-and-fallow system or something mundane that's easy to talk about, easier still if he doesn't know a lot about it and can ask her questions that she knows the answers to. Or maybe Haar sees Jill looking a little off and he walks up to her and says, "You really miss him, don't you?" and all she says in response is, "Yes," because nothing else needs said to convey exactly what it is you want to say, which is, Hey look! They're having a normal conversation! or, He gets her.

To the fandom's credit I haven't read a lot of 'fic with dialogue that felt forced. (But I tend to read only certain things and most people whose stuff I read seem to know how to write dialogue already, or at least have a decent grasp of it.) But it's something I've seen a lot of people stressing over. I like to imagine that I'm pretty good at dialogue most of the time, but there are some characters I simply cannot write (Bastian; he's so awesome but seriously I cannot mimic that speech pattern and thanks to the Fire Emblem Dressing Room's version of him speaking in only iambic pentameter I can't stop thinking about it; wasn't that version also a rapper version of him?), and other characters I'm just not very good at writing (Sain, Lute).

I think most people will find characters whose personalities they find naturally easier to write. For me, I'd have to say I think Farina's pretty easy to write (though her personality is très complexe!), and so is Lyn, Jill, and probably Kent (complexe aussi!).

And then you have characters who will just always be more difficult to work with, like Hector and Wallace. People can say Wallace is easy to write because he's so funny, but not many people have attempted to write Wallace as he's shown in his supports with Lyn (like a father figure) or Kent (mentor). Usually they have him GWA HA HAing all over the place which is still in character but only if you're trying to be funny, which most people are. The problem is that Wallace is still a person/character and has feelings, motivations, et cetera--nobody bothers to explore them. With Hector, he's just so pushy and obnoxious and always-right that you feel like you have to write him that way...but in the end, he's got a more sensitive side, too (seriously, those supports with Serra and Farina? omg, he's actually quite understanding and nice, and he LIKES to help other people), and that can be really hard to capture in a franchise where most characters on the surface appear to be one-trick pony characters (or almost literally are, cough Kieran cough Ilyana). Digging deeper and writing a character as 3D is a challenge, and that goes double if you're writing a short 'fic, because you want people to say, "WOW! This is completely in character, I'm impressed!" but that's hard to pull off in a short amount of words.

I'm done rambling now. My apologies. :D

Thoughts? What characters do you find hard to write? What's hardest for you to write in a story? Dialogue? Description? Scenes? Battles?
05 February 2013 @ 09:26 pm
Who doesn't like boobs? Okay let's talk about them.

Boobtalk! )

That took FOREVER. Now I wonder if anyone else has boob headcanon. :D If so, share!!
04 February 2013 @ 03:45 pm
I'm late because I had to dig my scanner out. This post is about my headcanon regarding pegasi, how they work, et cetera.

Cut for a scanned image and opinions. )

Anything I forgot to mention? Feel free to ask. I'm a bit tired and this took a while, hehe.
02 February 2013 @ 10:01 pm
It's awfully hard coming up with something new for each day, but here we go!

Reason I Love Fire Emblem #02: Gameplay )